Well, currently Im nursing ma broken heart. I guess, I’d been born a romantic. In da pit of ma soul, im believed in love at first sight n instant attraction. But I’d a bad habit of leaping into relationships before looked. Maself seemed destined to suffer repeated heartache, n painful breakups…..
Before im opened ma eyes this morning, a feeling of déjà vu crept into ma pounding head. For da second time dat morning déjà vu tightened da back of ma skull n settled in da top of ma chest.
Why do men try n trick women? Because they r all liars n cheats! In da past few days I’d experienced every emotion. Hurt-anger-sorrow-confusion-loss. Then panic n horror. At da moment I’m was numb n so tired… I guess, I could probably sleep for da coming week. Yez, I want to do dat! Sleep til da pain went away…
When I might have tried to believe him, or think Im needed to understand him, but not today! I was through being da queen of denial. Through investing so much of ma life wif men who couldn’t thoroughly invest theirs…
I looked into da mirror, at da brownish circle beneath ma eyes. Hollow-empty… Everything was gone. I’d lost so much in da past few days. Two different guys but both r so in love wif me!
I was physically tired n emotionally bruised. I took a vow to stay away from men, at least til I figured out ma life. Until I’d a moment of clarity. Ma heart n pride were in shreds, but those were all things from which I would recover.
Fakkkk.. Im hurt..